She was a beautiful dreamer. The kind of girlfriend, who remained her chief in the clouds, cherished above the stars and left regret beneath the earth she walked on.
Robert M. Drake
When I was 8, I had a folder of clippings that included wedding dresses and possible themes. When I was 15, I had my first kiss. When I was 17, I saw I fell in love. And now I’m 20, and I don’t know who I am or what I want to become. My eyes are shining open, and I’m waiting for any opportunity to find my true-life path.
Let’s take a walk down memory lane. As a child collected from a divorced household, I’ve always dream of having a perfect family with a picket fence when I’m older. I daydream of having what I didn’t have when I was younger: The husband coaching the football team, weekend getaways, a typical, carefree life.
I looked at ripening older as the answer to all of my childhood troubles; the idea was glamorized. When you’re young, everything seems so simple because you really believe that with age, comesall that you want and all that you need simply because you’re grown-up and you have all of the answers.
But the thing is, I am older now and I have no idea what I require. I often wonder if the teenage form of myself would be proud of who I am now. Would she be disillusioned I stopped jigging? Would she care I stayed in contact with my old friends? Would she be proud I persisted writing?
It’s crazy to think of how different I am now compared towho I used to be. Contemplating back to old-time recognitions is like an out-of-body experience. It’s even crazier expressed the belief that, someday, I’ll ultimately have everything figured out and look back at this time when I was so unsure of everything and( hopefully) smile.
The entertaining happen about life is that it’s set up to always be preparing us for something more. Whether it’s junior high school develop you for high school, senior high school preparing you for college, heartbreak devise you for love or loss fix you for change, there’s ever something coming next. But right now, I’m waiting and speculating what is next for me.
The other era, I was clarifying to my best friend Alex how it’s crazy that I don’t have my life delineated out.
It’s not even like I’m at a crossroad, it’s like I have no road. I have no idea what the fuck is see me glad five years from now, ” I said.
Hereplied, Every day you waste not knowing whom you, is one more period you become more aware of yourself.
That simple-minded realization shaped me grasp, that in the times of despair when “youre feeling” the most fragile that is when you begin to know yourself “the worlds largest”. It’s both humble and heartbreaking to recognize I have the freedom to change my subconsciou and reinvent myself every day.
I’m 20 years old. I have no idea what I want from life, but I woke up this morning breathing and I have the freedom to not limit myself. Minutes like these are essential to appreciate the significant and unimportant aspects of life.
I don’t know what will become me happy five years from now, but I know what manufactures me happy now.It’s real “what theyre saying”: Life or extinction. There isn’t much else.
And for those periods in which you need a remember it’s OK to not have everything figured out in your early 20 s, here’s a roster of things that they are able to do just that 😛 TAGEND
1. A good “hairs-breadth” day.
2. Flowers blooming.
3. Complementary food.
4. Car trips with your best friends.
5. Knowing all the words to a song.
6. Finding new music.
7. Not having to wear a case outside.
8. Sleeping in clean sheets.
9. 100 percentage indictment on your phone.
10. The elevator arriving the second you push the button.
11. Passing puppies on the street…
12. … and being able to pet them.
13. Clicking “unfollow.”
14. Snagging the window seat on a plane.
15. Big, tight hugs.
16. Determining person wear your college sweatshirt.
18. Warm towels.
19. New candles.
20. A How are you? text.
21. New razors.
22. FaceTime or Skyping with family and friends.
23. Comfortable silence.
24. A warm, cozy bed with fluffy pillows.
25. Breakfast made by someone who loves you.
26. Finding goodies in your pocketlikemoney, a fuzz necktie or candy.
27. A good night’s sleep accompanied by sugared dreams.
28. Hot food, but not red-hot sufficient to burn your tongue.
29. Silly faces while taking selfies.
30. A brand-new admirer on social media.
31. Chocolate ANYTHING, be it dark, milk, grey, cold, defrosted, warm … doesn’t thing, as long as it’s chocolate.
32. The applauding din of a crowd.
33. Growing on the radio to your favorite song.
34. Waking up and recognise you have hours left to sleep.
36. Tea and your favorite Pandora station.
37. When your packet comes before the date it’s supposed to.
38. A good workout.
40. Getting your point across without having to argue.
41. A cup of coffee at the perfect booze temperature.
42. Looking through old pictures.
43. Eating cookie dough.
44. Dressing up for a nighttime out.
45. Waking up from a nightmare and realise it wasn’t real.
46. Nice praises from strangers.
47. The cold slope of a pillow.
48. Laughing so hard your abs hurt.
49. Sunsets and sunrises.
50. Remembering that while the sun may always place, it will also always rise.
The excellent way to captivate minutes is to pay attention to the little things. So, the next time you’re sense stuck and second-guessingyour next decision, recognise you’re human and you’re allowed to cry and shrieking and pray with affliction. But it’s too normal to recognize and smell the roses.
If you look for the bad you’ll find the bad, if you look for the very best you’ll find the good.
The best part of life? Every morning you have a new opportunity to become a happier form of yourself. Even when it seems like everything is going wrong in your life, there is always something that is going right.
Because the person you will be in 5 year is based on the books you read, the person or persons you circumvent yourself with and the things that you do today .